27 Ekim 2010 Çarşamba

fouling scot



I can't see anything that I don't like about you.
But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I'll get bored with you and feel trapped because that's what happens with me.
Okay.
[pauses] Okay

today's cleaning day.
assclowns will be out of the game.
sorry guys:)

25 Ekim 2010 Pazartesi

3...2...1

az sonra çok derin bir uykuya dalacaksın.bunun tadını çıkar.

soyadın ne?
.......
kaç doğumlusun?
......
kulağım çınlıyor...sağ taraftan sımsıcak birşey...




uyanış:
kaç dikişim var?
5 sağ 5 sol toplam 10.
başarılı geçti mi?
çok iyi geçti.
daha ne kadar burada duracağım?
15-20 dakika.

gözlerim saatte...12:45 azcık daha uyuyabilir miyim?
evet elbette...

10 Ekim 2010 Pazar

sense of something coming
I am like a flag in the center of open space.
I sense ahead the wind which is coming, and must live
it through.
while the things of the world still do not move:
the doors still close softly, and the chimneys are full
of silence,
the windows do not rattle yet, and the dust still lies down.

I already know the storm, and I am troubled as the sea.
I leap out, and fall back,
and throw myself out, and am absolutely alone
in the great storm.

Rilke